Life.

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. ~Author Unknown

Since I am an only child, there was no one left to plan the funeral, or take care of my parent's affairs. My grandma ( on my mother’s side) had suffered a stroke sometime before my mother’s death and couldn’t function well at the time. I planned an entire funeral at the age of 16.

I had nowhere to go after all of this. They wanted to put me in a foster home. One of my teachers at school said she had a friend with a spare room and I could stay there until I turned 18. The family treated me horribly. I won’t go into details, but if you’ve ever seen the movie Cinderella, you’ll know what I’m talking about, minus the fairy godmother and talking mice. I had to grow up quickly. I feel lucky to have made it out with a good head on my shoulders. I got to attend college, and I sold my parent’s home as soon as I turned 18. I moved to Tennessee and have lived here since. I believe those experiences have shaped me into who I am today. They say everything happens for a reason, and now I know I can overcome anything I set my mind to. I try to live everyday like it’s my last. I no longer hold grudges, I refuse to go to sleep angry at anyone, and I pray for everyone. If you’ve ever heard Tim McGraw’s “Live like you were Dying”, you’ll know what I’m talking about. If I ever see someone hurting, I lend myself to them, as someone to listen or a shoulder to lean on. I never judge, I let the people that enter my life be who they want to be.

I often think about my early childhood when everyone was well and alive. My earliest memory is of my parents, singing to me and tucking me in at night. They always did try to make my world a wonderful place without fear and hurt. Now I’m here to do that for my baby girl. I will always remember my parents, and think about them daily. So to my parents: Mom, Dad….if you are out there somewhere, your little girl is doing just fine. Thank You for all you did and for fighting so hard for me. I love you.

A heart bigger than the moon,

Spen’Sar

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